Thursday, April 29, 2010


AAAAAAHHHHHH ANGRY, ANNOYED, UPSET, SAD, PISSED OFF, TIRED, these are only a few of the feelings I have experienced these past weeks. With a little sunshine there is a bucket of thunder! I am tired of incompetent people. If you do not know how to do your job, DON'T DO IT!! By you trying to do something, on your own, and messing it up time and time again only creates more problems for me! If you volunteered to do something and you swear you are a pro in that area then why is it that I end up doing, what I could have done once, THREE TIMES OR MORE!!!! And I am sick and tired of people not showing up but promising they will be there! You want people to trust you, to think you are responsible then prove it! Show them by first and foremost SHOWING UP, second try to do your best and not half-ass the job, if you do not know how to do something then do not lie, the truth will come out! If you are struggling I will help. Do not make a thousandandone misakes because I have to clean it up after you, something that could have been prevented if you had been honest with me and yourself! I want you to get better but if you are not even trying why are you making it harder on the people that are actually doing what they are supposed to? Why do you email, call, and text me about something you told me you could fix? Why in the Lord's name do you do all this too late? You should know pretty early on if you can or cannot fix a problem. Why do you insist on telling me you cannot solve something when it is supposed to be done the day BEFORE?!! UGH....

Some people I want to hug and thank for being there when I tear my hair out, others I wish to slap the stupid out of their system for making my hard life HARDER!

I need to get rid of any negative energy if I am going to be able to continue...I needed to get this off my chest so badly, poor S has to put up with this every day. After this long break I post something this sucky, sorry...I hope to post something positive soon and not wait as long as I have. This is it for now so until later lovelies...


Wednesday, April 21, 2010

So sorry!!

Wow, have not been here for a while!! I have been enjoying the little sunshine we saw before the volcano errupted and snow came back. I have been so busy with UNICEF and getting ready for my short employment at the office. Looking for jobs, listening to my relatives nag about me getting married, wondering about my future, solving friends love issues, and so it goes on, my life has left me with little time to actually come on here and post something for my beloved friends and readers :-) Oh how I have missed you but please understand that sometimes one just does not have the time, or if I may be so bold, no effort to write anything. So much goes on in my head and so little motivation to express it on paper (or blog entry hehe). One thing I must share with you is since my beloved BlackBerry Pearl broke I finally got my BlackBerry Curve 8520 and could not be happier. I felt so much more professional when it arrived, I felt like the only thing missing was a law degree and an office and I would be living my dreams hahaha...yes, I am a bit weird at the moment but I will blame it on fatigue and heatstroke from the computer. After a long day of anger I think my body and mind are going on strike, which leads to this: incomprehensive blog entry! So before I make a bigger fool of myself I will say; goodnight, sleep tight, dont let the bedbugs bite!
(Check out my beloved phone! I'm so happy, feel like a kid in a candyshop for the first time hihi)
Until later my precious readers!

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

just another day in dreary Sweden

I was reading the blog of Malin Ã…kerman's sister, Jennifer, and her life in LA. I have to say that my heart literally aches when I read it. I don't know why I keep doing it but seeing the pictures just brings back memories of life there. I miss my sweet sweet friends, life in school, swimming in pools, clubbing in West Hollywood, visiting the wonderful museums, trying to find a great restaurant with delicious food, having lunch w cocktails and sooooooo much more!!!! S. is going back to LA with her whole family to walk the stage and get her diploma, can't say I am not jealous and wish I was going there too, but life needs to continue in boring Sweden with weather that can't make up its blimey mind! One day it's sunny and warm the next it's snowy and ice-cold...ugh. I am thinking of applying to San Diego University School of Law and S. is thinking of applying to San Diego University for spring 2011. Time is fleeting and I am spending it by applying, I'll be like 100 years old when I finally start Law School and a part of me wonders if it is all worth it. All my friends are moving on with their lives, getting married, working on their careers, traveling, just living life, and me? I'm stuck in the house I grew up in with no idea of what is going to happen in the future...BALLS!!

Anyways, the daily agenda awaits me so I need to get started instead of wasting it by crying about what has been. I want all of you wonderful friends in LA to know that I miss you immensely and hope to one day be able to see you again.

Until later