Friday, May 29, 2009

Cap and Gown...

Just got my Honor's Convocation pics in my email...all the sample pics of others are commencement pics...As I am watching them it feels pretty bitter sweet because I did not attend the graduation ceremony (was on a plane back to Sweden)...It was my choice at first but since things did not go my way I feel pretty bummed out because I don't know when I will be able to walk across the stage in my cap and gown and receive my diploma in a leather booklet...*sigh*...Until later dearest


Eh Eh...

Lady GaGa....sing it girl haha...I really like this song, different to what we usually hear from this special lady....cherry cherry boom boom hahaha (love that part)



more sad news..only sad news

I just wanted to say thanks to all my friends that are helping me through this difficult time...I do not know what my next move will be but I know that I will not give up on my dream I have had since the age of 8. I refuse...I feel I am going through the same thing that happened to me right after high school simply because I was stupid enough to depend on one school...Many of you might have guessed, I did not get accepted to Southwesternn Law School. It is interesting considering the fact that I have a much higher GPA than what they require...then again they claim the reason I did not get accepted was because the number of applicants were too high...I only applied to this god forsaken school so I would not have to sit at home and do nothing. Never assume anything!!! This is one of the easiest schools to get accepted to but because of the crappy economy they are not admitting as many and cutting back on teachers...competition was high I presume..Either way, I was planning on attending this school for 1 year and transfer out to the school of my choice, Loyola Law School. Now I am looking in to some grad programs at CSUN, USC, Pepperdine and so on, just so I can return to LA and my hard yet wanted life. Many ask why I want to leave the comfort of my home here in Sweden but the fact of the matter is that I built my own life there, no one did it for me. Everything I do there is because I choose it, nothing is chosen for me...
Another choice is that I might have look for a job here and work on my applications for other Law Schools but I have to retake the LSAT because to be honest my score SUCKED.....Bad thing is that they do not offer the LSAT in Sweden so I have to go to either England or Italy (closest to Sweden and countries where I know people) in order for me to retake it...Imagine if I have to retake it more than once!!! OMG, my parents will flip on me....They are already freaking out as it is....I will miss my beloved LA dearly and all my friends there...I cannot wait for this HORRIBLE year to pass and hopefully 2010 will bring better news and luck...the girls are checking everything they can and I am looking online for anything that might be helpful...
Well, it is Friday here in Sweden and that means cleaning day for mum haha...think I need to help or get my head chopped off (it's Sophie's choice all over again haha)

(My beloved, it looks horrible hahaha but I still love it :) )

Until later darlings


Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Rude Ignorant people!!

It is 6 am here in Sweden and I am still suffering from jetlag...I can't remember the last time I was tired at 9 pm but lately I have been falling asleep around 9 or 10 pm while my 13 year old sister is wide awake watching TV next to me haha...I feel old :)
Yesterday was very productive I must say. Me and J. went for a walk but not where I expected..We ended up walking downtown and trying on dresses for her wedding (me that is) which took about an hour. I came back home and ate (again!!) waiting for my mom to get ready so we could go downtown and purchase all the lovely clothes I saw with J. We went in to a store to find cute summer dresses, as it is very needed in cloudy Sweden, and ended up finding the dress for the wedding...yeay, now that is no longer a concern!!! The woman working in the shop was sooo freaking rude!!! I was trying on the dress and when I was done I tried to put it back on the hanger but the straps are really complicated so it fell. I was just about to pick it up when I see a hand under the curtain of the dressing room swipe it away while a voice yelled out: "The dress cannot be on the floor!!!!!.....Bitch I am buying this dress, if I stand on it you can't say shit!! So I walk out with garments in my hand and both sales people are standing right outside and one of the girls say "I'll take those!" I am starting to get really pissed and start shaking so I hold on to the stuff and with a very rude tone (I know I am dangerous haha) I say to her "I AM BUYING THIS!!! AND THE DRESS!!!"...she looks shocked and says "oh, are you? ok then, sorry"....So as I am explaining the situation to my mother (very loudly I might add) I can feel the uncomfort oozing out of these women...This type of shop/mini mall is high class and I assume they thought I don't look like I live in this area so they tried to pull a "Pretty Woman shopping but getting denied" stunt on me!! Well, I showed them..they looked like idiots when we bought the stuff...and while my mom was saying their stuff is really cheap, not expensive at all (which is a slap to their face)!!! hahaha...I kept saying "too bad they have cute things but stupid sales people who don't know how to be civil"...Their behavior really bothered me because I have worked as a sales woman and NEVER judged customers by their looks!!! These women, I can guarantee do not live in this area, whilst I grew up here, so who the hell are they to look down on me?!! It is people like these that motivate me to become someone very important, just to be able to say "at least I did something with my life instead of being occupied with putting my nose in the air and frowning upon people"..Interesting thing that happened in the same mall but different shop years ago caused drama in my family as well as J's family. My brother and J's brother were shopping for their graduation in one of the shops where our parents were regulars (Massimo Dutti)..They came back pissed off!! My mom asks my brother why they didn't buy anything and he explains that as soon as they walked in the store one sales lady saw them and kept following them around in the shop as if they were thieves. They felt really uncomfortable (trust me it takes a lot to make these two guys feel that way) so they choose to leave...J's sister heard the story and being the fierce person she is, she marched down there with my mother, extremely fierce woman, and "spoke" with this woman. They both speak with a clear Swedish accent but lack the looks of a Swede (blame it on the Middle Eastern background haha), so they literally made the sales woman cry right on the spot. I really can't bare it when people start crying if I am yelling at them but people like that woman deserve it!! I am born and raised in Sweden, this is the place I call home, I have never lived anywhere else, except from America, nor have I have ever been to my dad's birthplace!! Just because I do not look like a Swedish person does not make me less of a Swede...When I travel I speak highly of my country and very proudly only to come back so I can be treated like shit based on my looks...But I can say this, dealing with stuff like this my whole life has made me stronger, forgiving, and most importantly given me motivation to do great things! Anyways, we continued our shopping and I got a new wardrobe hahaha so I need to add some shoes and a couple of other things before it is done
(Here is the mall, one of the shopping centers downtown...Downtown is filled with shops and different department stores. You can't see the name clearly but it is called Sture Gallerian)

I need to call S. and chat a little before anyone wakes up :) oops too mom woke up and so did Nala, who loooooves my mom (and the rest of the family as well of course)!!! Also, thank you to Riff Dog..I am trying to keep a positive attitude and keep hoping for a return to beloved LA...Until later lovelies


Back to Sweden

Ok, so now I am back in Sweden. I wish I could say I am happy but not really...I did not choose to come back but was kind of forced to return...After getting my denial letter from USCIS, I had to retun immediately. I attended the Honors Convocation two days before I had to leave. I cannot say how much I cried for days before, on the flight (while fearing for my life FYI), and after landing. I literally had to keep reminding myself to hold it in so my parents would not feel bad. First couple of days I just I have been spending some time with J. and listening to the wedding plans (her wedding day is July 11th)...I am going nuts finding a dress to wear for the wedding, I want it to be simple but also stand out because she is so close to me, like a sister. We went to get her wedding dress and I just have one word; PERFECT!!! It is sooooo wonderful and she is going to be a beautiful bride!!! I am actually going to call her now so we can go for a walk because the dress is a little tight on her...not that we could see anything, it was just what she felt..Well, I have to get ready because J. is getting ready for our walk so I don't want her waiting for my slow arse hahahah...until later lovelies


Wednesday, May 13, 2009

At the beach

Wow it has been 2 weeks since I wrote anything in the blog. The reasons are many and very sad. Also my AC adapter for my computer is broken so I am yet again using S's computer....NEVER BUY A DELL COMPUTER!!! Other than that, I have been having MAJOR problems and all I have the effort of saying now is that I have to go back to Sweden on May 20th. I am trying to do as much as possible before I leave because I don't know if I can come back or I should say WHEN. A took me to Chinatown yesterday which was a new experience and she took me and S. to Huntington Beach which was a blast. Me and S. tried to swim in the ocean but the waves were waay too high so we ended up staying in the water jumping with the waves and not drowning. However, we did see a man who almost drowned. He couldn't come back to the beach because the waves kept pulling him back. Two guys jumped in the water and pulled him up but it was hard for them as well. It was crazy. He was breath taken when he came out but happy to be alive. A. sat on the beach and tanned and missed all the action except for when me and S. kept falling down. After we came out of the water we tanned for a while, with me shaking because I was sooo cold, we decided to go eat. Huntington is VERY different from the areas I am used to...Think Laguna Beach....that is all I will say... :P We ate at a place called Coach's Mediterranean Grill....After we went over to A's ex D's house and stayed there for a while before heading home very I just came out of the shower, still feeling the waves hitting my body...We are all tired so we are most likely just gonna do something relaxing..also the girls are done with Spring Semester, next week Summer session begins...Until later lovelies
(We were on the other side of the pier)


Friday, May 1, 2009

Part of the list

I am in love with this song!!! It is the prelude to "mad" by Ne-Yo..."Part of the list"

I hope you guys will like it as much as I love it :) This is one of VERY few artist that can make my heart melt time and time again...There has not been one song he has released that I dislike...what can I say Ne-Yo knows music and knows what to sing about as anyone can relate to the love love his music!!!

until later lovelies


Another engagement...

Saw this quote on S's computer and fell in love!!

"Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be an option"

I don't know who said it, feel free to let me know because I would love to know who this genius is haha...I love this quote because the old me saw myself as an option and had someone else as a priority...Unrequited love is the worst kind of love. This was me, say 2-3 years ago, but no more!! I am my own priority and NEVER an option. I deserve nothing but the best and will not settle for less. This may come off as conceited but anyone who knows me knows this is a MAJOR step for me to even think!!! I have finally found my own value and come to love myself, JUST AS I AM!!! You don't like it? Tell someone who gives a damn!!

Wow, I feel full of power and confidence...We are all amazing in our own way and don't let anyone tell you anything different!!! Love yourself for you and nothing else!

Well, today I had an interesting conversation with my mother. Another of my cousins is getting engaged (another who is younger than me) and more friends are getting hitched...I am really happy to be single as I have had a lot to think about these past days. I mean I wanna go out there and meet new people and spend time with people, I wanna see what is out there for far I have found...*drumroll*...NOTHING, but there is something out there for me so I am gonna keep looking...well, to be honest I am not even looking haha...whatever happens will happen, right? When the time is right I will meet someone worth my time, until then I will enjoy my life to the fullest!! I am a 25 year old in Los Angeles, life is wonderful and is waiting for me to grab my mom says: "the world is at your feet" time for me to go for it :)

Well, I should go to sleep now as I went to sleep at 5 am last night and at 6 am, Andrew and Angela had an argument, needless to say; waking me up...Nala decided to start crying at 10 am because she must have heard stirring in the girls room...Hopefully tomorrow she will let me sleep in as the girls will wake up early for school tomorrow...Until later beautiful people